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Grains of Sand (from April 1)

I'm awake in the middle of night. Sadly, this isn't exactly a rare occurrence.

Also not rare, I can't get back to sleep because I'm angry about something and I am ranting about it in my head over and over and over.
I have had this problem my whole adult life.

Somewhere along the way, I learned that if I get up and write it down, I can let it go at the time long enough to get back to sleep.
But now, I'm trying to take it one step further, I'm trying to find the right perspective with which to view the problem.
I seem to be willing to sacrifice my sleep, my blood pressure, and my general health being pissed off about things that have very little value in the long run. They are grains of sand at the feet of the Great I Am, but I'm willing to sacrifice my health in a fit of silent rage stewing over it for hours.
I have to give these issues over to God; nothing is ever going to get solved the way that I have chosen to handle them all of these years.
Grains of sand. That's my new mantra.

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